Weekly Wrap Up

Hello, my friends. For the first time in my life, I really struggled with words this past week. And I continue to struggle with words. I took a little break from Instagram because I needed to reset. On top of the horrific things we’ve witnessed in the world, we had some things going on personally this week and while I am ashamed of the privilege I have to “take a break” from social media, I really needed to do it.

We spent last weekend on Cape Cod for a wedding with a group of dear friends who we hadn’t been all together with since February 2020. It was a true moment of joy and laughter that I really needed.

Which makes me feel incredibly ashamed of myself.

Having a platform, though small, is another privilege and one I’ve always taken seriously. I am still working out how to use my platform during this time while also protecting myself personally and professionally (I do have a job outside of social media working with young people and maintaining a safe environment for them physically and emotionally is extremely important to me). I’m sure I’ve disappointed a lot of people, and for that I am deeply sorry. I’m sure I’ve angered a lot of people, and for that I’m deeply sorry. I’m sure I’ve made a lot of people feel abandoned and for that, I am truly, deeply sorry.

I’ve felt a lot of feelings in a big way and each time I’ve set out to put them into words, all I’ve felt is a voice in the back of my head screaming, “stop centering yourself” so I knew I needed to take a step back publicly. I’ve been doing everything I can offline in order to get accurate news, care for the people in my life most vulnerable, and donate to humanitarian aid.

I don’t know how to show up right now. I don’t know how to balance the guilt I feel of being safe, fed, and warm, with the ability to separate from my phone and read for a little bit. So, I’m going to do my best to be authentically me on and offline because this is a pivotal moment in history.

Listening & Watching:

Weekend Plans:

I have plans to see the Eras Tour movie at the drive in with a group of friends and I have a long weekend at the theater with my students, but I hope I’ll be able to find some quiet moments to read as well. No matter where you are or how you’re feeling, I’m sending you love.

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